I didn't realize how small this would really be on my phone. Perhaps I will want to blog at night after gym and kids are in bed on lap top so I could see all the control buttons. And pretty this up once in a while. I just figured Facebook sometimes can lead people to read things in a certain way. I'm just starting out her I've never done this before. In fact the only diary or journal I've ever done before was well started out as a fun I wish kind of thing, then went into an outrageous hysterical funny shit.. huh Chris Brown?
Anyways this blog is for me personally, to jot down my day, my feelings, good days bad days, kid problems or my own emotional problems. I didn't want to post so much on FB how devastating my mom's death has been on me. I know we all deal with it differently. I just was kind of made to feel like, women up. Pick up your big girl panties and do what needs to be done. Which I understand is partly true, but I just can't get my self to that point yet. So if your reading this now. If you continue to read in the future. I hope you take it as it is and hope fully not that I'm complaining to much, or feeling sorry for myself. Cause yea maybe I am. And I'm making my pity party more then it should be. But it is my feelings my life and my blog.. lol
So for the future of my blog I hope it will help me get, and be stronger everyday. Both mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually. I plan to post about my food intake. My gym burning out takes. My daily issues with my family. And me, just me being me...
Tonight was my first night back to the gym in almost a week, I can tell its what i needed. Just being on my first machine i was already feeling better, releasing the endorphin or what ever there called. My food intake today was 1,312. I burned 612 at the gym. so that brings my intake for the day down to 697. for the day.. REALLY?? I almost hit my 10,000 steps for the day.
I'm irritated at our home scale, my weight has pretty much stayed in the same area give or take 4 LBS.
Alex is back to being sneaky (snooping, stealing, snacking an who knows what else) around the house in the wee hours while were still sleeping. He has an internal clock, he is up anywhere between 4-5:30 am every morning! CRAZY!
He has been doing so much better at school, I need to start the same chart they are using in school at home, including house rules and chores! Morgan is smart, she watches Alex & keeps her nose clean for the most part (there is 4 yrs between them though). She like her mom loves music, loves watching there videos. she is growing up faster then she needs to (but don't all girls) She is like 4 going on 14!
Well that's all I can think of for my first night!
Love to you all. Sandy C
